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what the hell is Greek life and why is it important

So I was on TikTok and I saw this video of this guy and he was saying something bad about frats and I thought that the guy was doing too much, to be honest. But the comments were all like “no bid” “GEED”, and I thought that it was just weird because it was like a community of these people saying things to this old dude calling him a GEED. I just looked up the word GEED and here are two things I found.

ratiod on urban dictionary

So after seeing this video, I thought of this conversation I had with my friend Romet and I don’t remember why but he asked me what was the point of Greek life. And I didn’t really have an answer for him; I just said that it was good for meeting people and you have a lot of fun if you join. I told him that they were people that came to Ole Miss just because of the Greek life, and he said, “What about school?” I don’t know I guess that just isn’t that important to some people.

But I understand it. I am jealous that I’m not given some of the opportunities that comes with being in a frat. It’s so much fun. You get to hangout with a bunch of guys that probably like football just as much as you and you get all the alcohol (hell yeah brother) you could ever need. You probably will meet the best friends you’ll have in your whole life, and you get to hangout with girls (hell yeah brother) all the time. the allure of beer and girls is too strong for some…

But the truth is that it strips you of your individuality

I’m not in a frat so I can’t really be too confident in what I’m about to say but to me, the stereotypes of Greek life aren’t stereotypes but the norm. I just saw a dude wearing flip flops… he HAS to be in a frat. A girl with platinum blonde hair HAS to be in a sorority. It’s like everyone is trying to adhere to the stereotypes instead of break them. I don’t know. It’s even a part of the rules, like having to wear slacks and polos to class in Mississippi August heat or having to wear suits to the football games. Like what? Obviously people are allowed to wear flip flops I’m not the flip flop police,

I did research for this

So I was curious and I looked up “Greek life studies” and the first one was all about alcohol abuse and stuff so I’m gonna talk about that. Basically, the study says that Greek involvement leads to heavier alcohol use and misuse than not. I don’t think anyone is really arguing that; if I had to guess I would say alcohol is the main reason (in an indirect way) people join Greek life in the first place. During orientation, I was listening to these guys talk, and this dude was from New York. Everyone had to know he was from New York. He told some dude that he was coming to Ole Miss because he wanted to be in an SEC frat. Later, he was making fun of some autistic kid like actually autistic, not just a little strange, so… The more you want to be in a frat, the worse of a person you are, I guess? I like it. Anywho, here’s the study. It says that, there are a few reasons Greek folks drink more. One is that, people join the frat so they have the opportunity to drink more. Alcohol addiction? The second is that people view everyone around them drinking so much, that they start to view it as normal and start drinking more themselves. From the time of the participants fall semester of freshman year to spring semester of sophomore year, drinking amount was almost double. What does this mean? Greeks like alcohol, it’s pretty basic.

Greek Life is Racist?!?!?!?

So… I knew that Greek life was a pretty white activity. I did not know how white. So I went on Instagram and stalked a bunch of their pages just to try and find a single black person and I couldn’t do it. HOWEVER, I did see this one frat made their pledge class climb 110 flights of stairs on 9/11 and that’s pretty solid. “Well, Alex, why are there no black people?” I can only assume that black people are stripped of their blackness when they join a frat. I mean, it’s Mississippi. Ole Miss is a historically very racist school, and I imagine that black people are so heavily hazed that it’s barely worth it. It’s been well over a year since I touched this article, you can tell because my writing is so correct. But, since writing, I’ve learned about black frats and I played kickball with them and I kicked a home run and it was the first points of the game and I was the only white person and I was so hype. What a day for me! But yeah, frats are racist by nature I think.

I don’t remember why i wrote this I also don’t remember what the research said but you can go look at it i guess if you are interested

but yeah, I kinda hate Greek life, I think it’s corny and sad, and while I understand the pull and I understand why people join, I could never abandon myself like that. But I’m bored a lot and I hate that and sometimes I wish I had more friends so maybe I should’ve rushed, I don’t know. I’m not going to go to college to be told what to wear. Mfs pay to get told what to wear😭😭

Its important because

It’s the most college thing about college. And you know I bet it was a lot cooler to be in a frat like 20 years ago. Everything was cooler 20 years ago sadge. I don’t know why it’s important. Ask someone in a frat.

I’m going to write something else too today I think. Thanks for reading this is from over a year ago

just some thoughts of mine

I think that it is really sad that by God, we only have one life. That alone makes a person selfish. “I have to maximize my life” or whatever. I’m a really selfish person, it’s been one of my core traits since being born. I hate that about myself. I wish I wanted to do things for other people you know because some people by nature already want to like my Meme, the goat for real im nothing. I think kindness and compassion aren’t very valued; I think it’s hyper glorified at Ole Miss, though. There’s a lot of negativity in the world bro. Like what the actual flipping hell

i been movin calm dont start no trouuuuuuble wit me

I went to my four classes today and they all seem chill and fun and some of them seem hard asfffff.

I had to mention my school at least once

But anywho, yeah I just think it’s kind of sad that we don’t live in a world of friendship and kindness, but rather in one of greed and selfishness. And it just kinda seems like that is what works best for people. It seems like the most successful people or my idea of successful, are not the kindest people.

I’ve been feeling really sick like deep in my stomach. It happens a lot in the morning and I think it’s because I’m stressed or whatever I am. The world is just so depressing bro like there’s so much bad stuff happening, and you’re like “Well there is good stuff sometimes too.” The only thing we know is that we’re going to die and you know actually that sounds like a positive phrase to me. Almost like mind freeing geez louise.

I hate mfs that look at their phone when they walk I hate mfs that say “like” all the time even though I say it too. It’s one of my worst qualities probably. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I’m pretty selfish. I don’t think about others very often and when I do it’s usually rooted in something that has to do with me. I think that is also probably one of my worst qualities and it also isn’t as funny or funny at all. I care about animals I do stuff for them and I’ll do stuff for my siblings and I don’t think of myself. I guess I’m nice to people like I do stuff for people. I hold the door for people that’s a pretty good quality, probably one of my best. I dont really think about myself when I’m holding the door it’s almost like a habit. Zach said something to me the other day and it was like “dude you were the smartest person in the room since you were 6” and while I appreciated the ego stroke, the sentiment was that that was a bad thing for me. And whether it’s true or not, no way I’ve been in the room with some incredibly smart people (why im trollin😭😭😭😭😭😭😭) But I hate being told no because from my perspective, I’m right. I have the best idea because I’m an evil narcissist. And I kind of think about smart a lot it doesnt really mean anything to anybody except for me. Bro its because my mom showed me my IQ when I was like 10.

short little chess interlude

Like I knew I was smart already I had good grades and I went to chess tournament, got second place to Wyatt Jordan bro what a guy. That dude checkmated me with his rook from his spawn into mine I moved my king into a pocket on the left back part of the board and there was a wall in front of himso he couldn’t escape, I just didn’t see the rook bro. That was fourth grade I’ll never forget that chess board because I lost that loss hurt my soul bro. You know what I don’t remember? I don’t remember how I won the chess tournament the next year. I have no idea. I know I beat Wyatt in the third round and then I think I beat Brad and I beat Cameron Jones second, my dog. That dude is pretty smart he knew keyboard shortcuts in like third grade he made a fidget spinner with like tape and bearings in fourth or fifth. Solid dude that one. But yeah I don’t remember my winning move of the chess tournament but I remember my losing one. I need to share this with someone smarter than me because what does that mean? It means I let the loss sit and take up space and energy because I think it makes me less of a person or ? something like that ? Why am I so fucking negative brooooooo!!!!! What da flip😡😡😡😡😡

So yeah she showed me my IQ and my ego inflated higher than it was and you know I didn’t have the best grades I had a B sometimes and I didn’t have the most friends but maybe this is something I can hold onto where im the Superlative. Is that even what I did though I’m trying to go back into my own subconscious from ten years ago, it’s kind of hard. I don’t know I only gained self awareness like 2.5 years ago I’m way behind. Whatever im so smart than why do i make such stupid decisions like the stupid loser i am😞. But yeah she showed me it, and I started to think I was smarter than adults like teachers and stuff, and my parents and random strangers, and that’s just how I was until like junior year when I stopped being such smug little dickhead. That’s the worst part bro is I would use my smart to make everyone hate me. Trolling I guess???? So after junior year, I tried changing and it’s worked but I just feel like that selfishness and that superiority complex is baked into me. I feel like I’ll never be able to actually get it out of my subconscious.

Im one of one never replicated bc they cant

They tried. Im the only me ever. I wish everyone a good night. Thank you for reading I deadass appreciate it so much bro it means everything to me really to give me your time and attention and its so hard to read things at least for me I have tiktok brain too bad. And my writing is weird and gross and a loser but no for real I love yall its love reading my little words. Really please tell me if you read my thing in real life see how much it means to me. Thanks everyone✌️

What does having a website mean??

It means I am better than you.

Okay im trolling. It means that I obviously feel a need to get my thoughts out there, or maybe it means i really want people to take the things i say seriously. I feel like i say a lot of smart things but i say them in a manner that maybe they arent taken serious.

What the fuck is this kids deal😭??

Im the kid, what is my deal. I really really care what other people think. I dont know how to not really care. I really struggle a lot with self confidence, like deep down I know I love music more than anyone and I know i love sports and know everything about everything and i think i make people happy sometimes. but at the end of the day when its time to go to sleep i can never sit and think about myself and be happy with the person that i am. I have to think about being with other people or hanging out with my friends to even be able to go to sleep. I think i struggle a lot with loneliness and i think i have for a long time. Ive never really felt right around my peers except one person where i felt like “oh you get it”.

I need to write more things of substance and value

I need to write about music and movies in a way that is interesting to read. i learned a lot in my journalism classes about keeping attention and I kinda ignored because “they read for me” or something like that. but the truth is that some of my best friends dont read my shit and maybe its because they clicked on a post and got bored after 10 seconds. i still have over a year of website time left. hopefully i start writing a lot more because i have too many thoughts i feel like im going crazy. thanks guys give me recs of what to write about, give me a topic to research or a movie to analyze or music or something im so bored id love to do something at least semi productive and maybe make someone happy by doing it thanks everyone.

im in pol sci 251 rn

This isn’t even a political science class, it’s a math class. And it pisses me off (Draymond Green reference) because it’s like too simple. It just is a class defining terms like different variables. Why does it matter if I can identify between a ratio variable and an ordinal variable?? I feel like, if anything, I should be taught how to read and understand information. I don’t know, maybe I will learn to see the class for what it is. We don’t talk about politics in here. She doesn’t apply the concepts we learn to real world activities. I can’t use my laptop in this class either, but lowkey I be on it anyways because I’ll just walk out and leave. Actually she’s talking about the State of the Union address but we’re not analyzing it or anything. If ten people answered between 1-10 how much they liked the address, how can we measure those values? Mean, median, and mode. I’m doing mean, median, and mode in my pol sci 251 class. She just said it’s easier to find the mode and median when you put the numbers in order. I wonder if everyone else feels the same. She said I have to put my laptop away, bye. I left in the middle of class because I was bored.

now im in jour 271

We have to pick a beat and he’s basically doing a draft and if I get a bad pick I’m gonna be so mad. We talked about the State of the Union for the first 20 minutes. I was the second pick im the goat everything always works out for me. I chose music, obviously. Actually, letssss fuckingggg gooo im so hype i got music. I literally work at the music factory. But I have like 800 words due Monday morning, and another thing due Friday morning. I’m going to have to lock in on my work and not just lay on the floor looking at my phone for three hours. Actually such a mood lifter bro.

now im in span 111

My Spanish class is so lit. It’s two hours, but never feels that long. The teacher is super helpful, I think he might be one of the best teachers I’ve ever had. I actually feel like I’m learning the language at least a little bit.

now im in my bed

I did my Spanish class and went to work and then went home and did nothing and did some reading and i dont really have anything else to say. but i do usually have a lot to say… just not right now. Hopefully I write more, my thoughts are too awesome to live in my head forever. thank you goat nation

DNA BY DANNY BROWN

“It’s in my DNA, cause my pops like to get fucked up the same way”

DNA is a song where Danny Brown blames his drug addiction on his parents, saying that they liked “to get fucked up the same way”.

My mom had me when she was 22. Her mom had died a few months prior to finding out she was pregnant with me, and when she went to the doctor she told them that she quit drinking, smoking cigarettes, and smoking pot, her mom just died, and the love of her life is in Iraq. Then the doctor said that I was going to die in her belly because of my mom’s stress levels. And they said the best thing to do was smoke a joint once a week. I remember when she told me that I was like “Bruh it’s your fault I’m addicted to the cart bruh” which is obviously not true. I could never blame her for that. And I remember thinking like damn… If moms do drugs while pregnant, that baby already has an addiction to that thing. Newborns have been shown to exhibit withdrawal symptoms of alcohol, cocaine or what have you.

One of my favorite lyrics of the song is

“I don’t smoke an eighth a day, I might end up a mental patient.”

I had my stretch of needing to smoke everyday. When that addiction starts itching you, it’s unlike anything. I used to be so upset that I didn’t have friends, but I would have to remove myself from situations where I was around people because I wanted to go smoke. It was more important to get high than to make friends. I remember there was a day where I just wanted to get high so bad and my cart had run out or something and I went to my house and was looking everywhere for one. In cushions, my mom’s desk, and I could not find one. And you really do feel like a mental patient. You feel anxious and stressed about nothing and that is what the addiction is.

I think my favorite part of this song is the production. DNA is supposed to act as the first song of “Side B” of his record and if you listen to XXX front to back, DNA sounds much different from the songs that preceded it. Danny himself said he thought the album cover was like a vinyl and he wanted to keep that vibe. The whole second half of the album is different, really. When you listen to the song, the instruments just hit heavy.

This song is very important in Danny Brown’s discography

Danny Brown is known for glamorizing drug addiction. I mean the song before DNA is called Adderall Admiral. The first verse glamorizes it. He mentions his “Versace pillowcases”, “Terry cloth bathrobe”, “white wine in flute glass”. He lives a lavish life, even saying, “Every night, like a bachelor party in Sin City.” The second verse is one of my favorite ever. He says, “Perceived as a villain, no sentiment in my sentence / For instance, in instants, they’ll be calling forensics.” He’s saying that everybody just sees him as some drug addict rapping about his drug use and they aren’t respecting him or acknowledging the talent that he has. He’s a “villain” in the rap game. Danny Brown is one of the few artists today that actually seem to be pushing themselves. But anyways, Danny is agreeing with them, admitting that he could die from it. The next four bars is, “If incidents occur, remember these ain’t just words / Go from talking shit to organs preserved / You soft-serve rappers just hide behind your reverb / And even without effects, you’ll end up dessert”. The first two lines are still about himself. He wants to be remembered for the meaning behind the words and not just the words alone. These next two lines are pretty amazing. He’s saying that other rappers in the game are scared to talk about their own struggles and are just “hiding” behind voice effects. He then goes onto to tell them that even if they didn’t have effects, they’re “dessert”. They are sweet and soft just like dessert or just like soft-serve ice cream. And this line is right after he says no one respects him for his talent. I see it Danny.

The End

The end.