It means I am better than you.

Okay im trolling. It means that I obviously feel a need to get my thoughts out there, or maybe it means i really want people to take the things i say seriously. I feel like i say a lot of smart things but i say them in a manner that maybe they arent taken serious.

What the fuck is this kids deal😭??

Im the kid, what is my deal. I really really care what other people think. I dont know how to not really care. I really struggle a lot with self confidence, like deep down I know I love music more than anyone and I know i love sports and know everything about everything and i think i make people happy sometimes. but at the end of the day when its time to go to sleep i can never sit and think about myself and be happy with the person that i am. I have to think about being with other people or hanging out with my friends to even be able to go to sleep. I think i struggle a lot with loneliness and i think i have for a long time. Ive never really felt right around my peers except one person where i felt like “oh you get it”.

I need to write more things of substance and value

I need to write about music and movies in a way that is interesting to read. i learned a lot in my journalism classes about keeping attention and I kinda ignored because “they read for me” or something like that. but the truth is that some of my best friends dont read my shit and maybe its because they clicked on a post and got bored after 10 seconds. i still have over a year of website time left. hopefully i start writing a lot more because i have too many thoughts i feel like im going crazy. thanks guys give me recs of what to write about, give me a topic to research or a movie to analyze or music or something im so bored id love to do something at least semi productive and maybe make someone happy by doing it thanks everyone.

This isn’t even a political science class, it’s a math class. And it pisses me off (Draymond Green reference) because it’s like too simple. It just is a class defining terms like different variables. Why does it matter if I can identify between a ratio variable and an ordinal variable?? I feel like, if anything, I should be taught how to read and understand information. I don’t know, maybe I will learn to see the class for what it is. We don’t talk about politics in here. She doesn’t apply the concepts we learn to real world activities. I can’t use my laptop in this class either, but lowkey I be on it anyways because I’ll just walk out and leave. Actually she’s talking about the State of the Union address but we’re not analyzing it or anything. If ten people answered between 1-10 how much they liked the address, how can we measure those values? Mean, median, and mode. I’m doing mean, median, and mode in my pol sci 251 class. She just said it’s easier to find the mode and median when you put the numbers in order. I wonder if everyone else feels the same. She said I have to put my laptop away, bye. I left in the middle of class because I was bored.

now im in jour 271

We have to pick a beat and he’s basically doing a draft and if I get a bad pick I’m gonna be so mad. We talked about the State of the Union for the first 20 minutes. I was the second pick im the goat everything always works out for me. I chose music, obviously. Actually, letssss fuckingggg gooo im so hype i got music. I literally work at the music factory. But I have like 800 words due Monday morning, and another thing due Friday morning. I’m going to have to lock in on my work and not just lay on the floor looking at my phone for three hours. Actually such a mood lifter bro.

now im in span 111

My Spanish class is so lit. It’s two hours, but never feels that long. The teacher is super helpful, I think he might be one of the best teachers I’ve ever had. I actually feel like I’m learning the language at least a little bit.

now im in my bed

I did my Spanish class and went to work and then went home and did nothing and did some reading and i dont really have anything else to say. but i do usually have a lot to say… just not right now. Hopefully I write more, my thoughts are too awesome to live in my head forever. thank you goat nation